Well sportz fanz, for those of you who thought that i had dropped off the face of the planet, i kinda have. About the middle of June I got a job teaching 5th grade. YAY... yikes. Well I have spent every second possible since then preparing for the amazing 29 little guys that get to be in my care for 6 hrs every day. It is overwhelming at least. WOW.
For those of you who know me well you know that I am terrible with change, and that I need to have all my ducks in a row at all times. This challenge is not one that really allows for that very often. Most days I feel like i am just spinning my wheels, working as hard as possible, but going no where. It is extremely challenging. A challenge that most will never understand. Sometimes I wish that i could have a job were if they tell me I will be paid from 8:30-4:00 I actually stop working at 4:00, but realistically, I cant think of career I would rather be doing. Its amazing how blessed I have been through this entire process. I could tell you stories that would mean nothing to you about how deeply i have been blessed by the small simple things that show how much My Heavenly Father knows and loves me, but that would probably bore you.
It is funny cause all through my education they said that you would always feel guilty about your first year and i totally believe it. I feel like I am teaching my students nothing, and am no where near where i need to be, but they just keep showing up every morning anyway. They are such a good group of kids and i am so blessed to be their partial steward for a portion of the day. Just dont tell them that I really dont know anything (I'm getting really good at faking it!) That about sums up the newness of my life. I will try to post pictures of non-frooffy classroom in the near future. I think my camera may be on it's last leg. Sad day.
